Smiles in Disguise

Most of the people around me would probably describe me as one happy person who never fails to inject humor even at the dullest moment. This is probably because of my disposition to take things at the most positive way possible. However, there are times when despite the positive aura I try to bear I could not help but endure that silence from within and disguise a smile I knew I never meant to display. These are the moments when I could only stage a fancy stare towards the farthest horizon and make every words phrased so awkwardly just to form sensible thoughts.

At some point, there a disappointments, frustrations and regrets I can never fathom to rationalize. These are thoughts I could hardly process and make some justifications to appease my restless soul. During these moments, I can only be as sane as possible but inside it is ripping me apart. Things become uncontrollable and I can no longer reconcile them to what is at hand. When frustration creeps in, I just take a deep sigh and look forward to a good night sleep to let it pass and hopeful that tomorrow will be another good day!